Monday Oct. 6 2008

My how the time flies eh? I'm so sorry I haven't been writing much lately. Baby has her nights and days mixed up, so I've been sleeping whenever Harley will give me the opportunity.

We moved into the new house on the 25th. Exciting, but so stressful. Anyhow, we're here now. I love it! But I don't seem to have the energy to get things out of boxes, so the house in only half in order. Not to mention I really want to paint the house. Most of it is a mint green, and the den is a peachy pink color. Other than color though, Im so happy to be here. This place felt like home the minute I walked in, and the more things I'm able to take out of boxes, the more "at home" I feel. I can definitely tell that Harley is thrilled to be here as well. Walks out one balcony door, and comes in the other. I think he's amazed to have such a large back yard (fenced) that mom will just let him come and go as he pleases.

Summer is doing great. On the 10th it will be a month already! Can you believe it? I haven't had a chance to just focus on her, with all the moving, I feel like I missed so much. She holds her head up great now, and loves to be on her tummy. As a matter of fact she gets mad on her back. She is started to like the swing, but prefers to be held. And that is posing a problem for us. But how do you "unspoil" a baby? Harley adores her. He wakes up and shouts "Good Morning Baby girl Summer" Its really funny.

Things are progressing great! My incision is almost healed now that the infection is gone. I was having a terrible time nursing with this one, so I did decide to try the medication, and so far so good. I think I'm ready to come off of it and continue with just trying. Problem is the meds cause terrible head aches, and I'm bleeding again from them... (not that you needed to know) but I got enough issues to deal with don't need to add more.

I'm learning to adjust to having 2 kids. Its not a real problem actually, the biggest issue is the lack of sleep. I'm up all night with Summer, and then have to be up all day with Harley. And of course Harley doesn't nap! So I'm literally running on 3 hours of broken sleep every day.

Anyhow thought I would touch base. New phone number is 780-760-7620... don't you love the 780 now?!

Sept 19 2008

Miss Summer Marie Dawson
Born September 10th, 2008 @ 10:45am
6lbs 4oz 19 1/2 inches

I thought it was hard to blog with 1 kid... lets see how I do with 2!?! LOL

Tuesday Sept. 2 2008

Still no baby. Scheduled c-section for the 9th though. We we approved for everything for the house as well. And so far the possession date is the 15th. All help appreciated... LOL...

Aug. 20 2008

I was having terribly stomach pains and a constant back pain. And every couple hours it would get even tighter and much more painful for a few minutes, then that pain would disappear. At first I thought it was the food. My in laws all think its just wonderful to go out for dinner, even though I have tried many times to explain that restaurant food makes me ill. It was FIL's birthday, so we went any ways. That was Friday night, but midnight Saturday I decided to get checked just in case it was the real thing. Which right now I pray every moment is the real thing. So we went into the hospital and I was too happy to be given T3's with codeine and get a real sleep... but they gave me a prescription and I haven't needed the Tylenol since that night.

Last night however, getting Harley ready for bed i was sitting on the floor and I got this horrible wrenching pain from the top of my belly button straight down into my "womanly parts." I shrieked. It hurt so horrible. But only the one. That was at about 9pm. Then by midnight I had a flow of these pains like every 5 minutes. We started keeping track of time. And by 1 am I was fine and baby was moving like crazy.

I just cant help but wish right now that everything that goes on with my body is the real thing.
Needless to say. STILL NO BABY!

We got approved for the house and possession date is the September 26th. I am too exited about it. Fenced yard! 4 bedrooms plus den.

Thats it! Ill try to get back as soon as I can.

Friday August 15 2008

Im sorry I havent been around blogging much. I just having been feeling up to it. Today is FIL's birthday, so I suppose this mean I HAVE to have a baby today. Well... I don't think that its really up to me. So do ya think ya could stop hounding me dad!? Isn't it bad enough my first has to share his birthday with christmas? Why would it be fair for the second to share with Gido?

Regardless anyhow, my due date has been changed to the 1st. And the math doesn't add up. I am contracting any how though. So we'll see. Baby is head down, but face up. Same as Harley, only they aren't too worried about it. I have something called an "opy' belly? And if everything goes like it should, baby should "cork screw" her way out.

Whatever?!

We're in the process of buying a house.... hopefully... So things are crazy there, and I have lost all my energy, and all my patients...

Will write as soon as I can....

Tuesday August 5 2008

12 days to go ladies and gents. Finding it a little weird knowing that its that close to happening, but I don't feel like I'm gonna have a baby. I could complain the way moms do when prego. But I just dont have much to.... Oh okay I'll complain!

I CANT BREATH! no matter what position I try
I CANT EAT
I Can bend... but it hurts every other part of my body
my hips are aching, the head aches, the nausea, vomiting, diarrhea, the lack of sleep... or feeling like a lack of sleep...

Harley went camping again with my parents the long weekend. (Spoiled kid) Wade and I stayed here and hung out, although I didn't really feel like we spent any time together.
And next weekend... we see ELMO live at Rexall... Too exciting!

I have a docs appt tomorrow, and again my sis in law will be watching Harley for me. So I will post back when I know more. This one will also be telling me the results of my thyroid tests.


P.S. We found the perfect name for baby..... Miss S. Dawson

See ya soon!

Thursday July 31 2008

This is more than likely the last long weekend before our baby is born. Harley once again is going camping with Grandma and Grandpa (My parents.) He is too excited all he keeps saying is "Grandma's Car... Camping again."

Yesterday I went in for my blood work for the Thyroid and next Wednesday we'll find out if that is whats going on with me. Janel was here to watch Harley, and has watched Harley for almost every appointment I have had so far. Its so nice to have someone to rely on like that. Every one insists this baby will be early, but I have a strong feeling she'll be late.

Because of the basement flood I've been working extra hard trying to get things in order. Almost everything from the basement has made its way upstairs. Harley's play room seems so boring now. But to try and find some place else to live has been too challenging, especially since baby will be here soon.

Any how I have more work to do in that basement

Be back soon...

Tuesday July 29 2008

I've just been busy... We've been trying to get Wades bike back on the road, but it just keeps costing us more and more money. And Saturday we really had the basement in order. I thought the house was complete. Sunday We went to the air show, and came home to 3 inches of water in the bottom of the basement. A real mess.

The air show was amazing, and Harley super enjoyed himself. Everyone managed to keep the sunburns away... except me. I burnt the left side of my forehead, and my left thigh... interesting.

My hips are killing me, but I seem to have a lot more energy lately too. Tomorrow I will go for my blood work, because I won't be able to see my doc until the 6th.

I will try to pop in more...

Thrusday July 24 2008

Thought I would post a few pictures of baby's room. Very little left to do, but there is yet so much to do. LOL. No throwing up today, so I think that is good. Cleaned off my computer desk, to fill it up with a bunch more papers from upstairs. And I am now about to tackle the play room.

later!

Wednesday July 23 2008

I haven't been ignoring you, nor have I had baby... I've just been busy. Harley left Friday morning to go camping with my parents, and he didn't come back until Monday. Nice little break for me. I had my doc appt Friday afternoon, and they are checking my thyroid because of my weight loss and blood pressure drop in the last week. Saturday Wade and I went to Ma me o Beach to visit Harley and my Parents just for the day. Had tons of fun. Harley has never been camping before. Sunday Wade and I cleaned the garage and Wade took his bike in to hopefully be fixed by Friday. Monday Harley came home, and I'm sure you all know how much laundry and house cleaning comes with coming home from camping... especially for a kid. Tuesday I discovered a hornets home beside my front door. So FIL came over and sprayed it, hopefully he killed them.... So today I thought I would touch base!

I have not been feeling well... in a sense that I am throwing up again, can't keep anything down, and even if there is nothing in my stomach I'm still throwing up. Baby's heart beat was at 147 bpm on Friday. My blood pressure was 120/70 and I have lost 5 lbs in a week... I have another appt on the 6th of August, but I have to go for some major blood work before I go back.

Just keeping you filled in...

Friday July 18, 2008

As of yesterday, its "okay" for me to have a baby. because of my high blood pressure, the doc told me I only had to keep baby in until the 17th of July and she would be "safe" enough in the world. I say lets just wait. As much as I really do want her out of me. I'm tired of being uncomfortable, I want her to be as healthy as possible as well. I have a doc appt. today at 3:40pm so we'll see how things are progressing. As for kids....

I am a childless mother for 3 days. Harley is off to Grandma's, although, not her house... they are taking him on his first real camping trip.... SCARY! I'm not really worried, more nervous. The worst things happen when camping, and I don't think Harley's ever been away for so long before. This is will be a nice test though for when baby gets here to see how well he can do without mommy for a few days.

Yesterday Auntie Janel came to visit Harley and hang out with him, which was super nice. And Wednesday my parents came to hang out with Harley. While they were here, dad also put the ceiling fan up in our bedroom... how nice is that ?

I have been "awkwardly uncomfortable" for a few days now. Baby is moving in some of the most weird ways lately. Preparing for something? Also extra discharge... She'll be here soon.
Her room is almost complete, I think it really is just a matter of cleaning up and I think thats it. Will fill you in Monday.

Til then....

Monday July 14, 2008

An eventful weekend... Actually just a weekend full of stuff to do. Took the van in to have a few things done to it. Went to the bank, and that took hours. Cleaned the old van, and sold it! Grocery shopping, and maybe a little clothes shopping for myself.... hehe... A Birthday party that lasted too long to be a kids party. Almost finished cleaning the garage. Baby's room has some finishing touched left, but thats about it.

Yesterday and today, I have been so uncomfortable. My back and belly are so crampy and tender. So today I packed the hospital bag... Amazed at how little went into this bag as opposed to what I thought I needed LOL. I guess I've just forgotten all these things...

Miss Wader, never feels like there is enough time together over the weekend. Our neighbor is moving, so that is sad as well. He plans to have a big party this weekend. So Harley is going to moms house. Actually they are going camping. First time Harley's been camping... as well as away from me for 2 nights in a row... A little nervous on this one.

Anyhow back to try and get work done....

I woke up this morning and realized, I only have just over a month left. Why is time going by so quickly? Why can't Things take it easy? I'm no where near as big with this baby as I was with Harley. I am uncomfortable, and it is hard to breathe, but I just wanna savor the last moment with Harley before I have to stretch everything between 2 kids.

Loving my new mini van by the way... In case you never knew. Wade's been calling me through the day, but I've been out and about. Still have a few little things left in the baby's room. So I feel like I'm done, but I think that is why my days are flying by.

Sold the old van, so I need to vacuum, and steam clean and yada yada all that today. The inside is hideous! And of course laundry day... 6 loads! So my work is cut out for me today, to get everything done before the weekend. Make sure this house is in order so we can have fun!

Sunday we have a birthday party to go to. My cousin Chad is turning like 12 or 13 or something, and Harley just adores him. Saturday my van goes in to get the rock chips in the windows fixed so they don't spread. (they are so tiny you can hardly tell they are there. Thats why I'm being picky) Finish the in laws shed, its rained all week, so they were at a stand still. And I need to find pictures for baby's room. So far thats what the weekend has in store. Lets hope I'm feeling well enough to get it all done.

Til Monday...

Tuesday July 8, 2008

So I'm back to throwing up... day 4 now, and I wake up because I'm throwing up. Interesting... this is gonna last forever isnt it? Mom called last night, and has this brain wave she's gonna baby sit for me... uh huh... Except she wants to baby sit Wednesday, and I don't need a baby sitter Wednesday. On top of that, she wants me to take my little sister with me. Except I don't need to go anywhere. I should, and could go and get my blood pressure and weight gain checked. Only I had planned to do that on Saturday. Guess I'm going Wednesday now eh ?

Anyhow I'm sure she has the crib bedding, so I'm thinking thats why she wants me outta here.

Last night we were at the in laws. They are building a shed in the back yard. Wade, FIL, and his cousin Clarence were all outside and Harley wanted out, so we let him out, and the boys said they could watch him. Guess what?! They couldn't. Because in no time Wade came flying into the house, looked at the pile of shoes, and then at me, slammed the door and took off running. I understood exactly what happened, and none of the other women did. So when I took off out of the house, screaming, the ladies were so confused. My son was missing!!!! Across the entry to my in laws complex ( a very high traffic road) is a park. "Slide Slide" thats what Harley wants the second we go there. So I took off looking over there. For about 3 minutes ( I'm estimating time. The woman followed me out of the house, and they say it was like a minute and half) my 2 1/2 yr old was missing. As awful as this sounds, I even looked at the road to make sure remains of my child we're there. Those minutes seemed like hours, and my brain was in such a tizzy I couldn't think of anything other than "Where is my baby!!!!!????" Suddenly I hear, " I found him." I go running!!! My son wasn't missing, he was helping his daddy and Gido build, at the back of the house, instead of at the shed. He wasn't doing anything wrong. He couldn't understand why we were all so worried. He was so mad I made him come in the house, he was so confused why mommy and daddy were wanting all these hugs and kisses. The worst feeling in the entire world. Is thinking you have just lost the only thing that means anything to you. The only thing that matters. The only thing you wake up for every morning, kiss every night, live, breathe, and sweat. He IS the only thing!!!


Now today, I'm paying for it. I'm sick, I hurt and I am so sore. But a pregnant woman isn't supposed to be running, jumping, screaming, and frantic. Regardless thank GOD my son is here with me and it was only a minute....


Thanking the Lord....

Thursday July 3, 2008

My new van is now sitting in my drive way. This is probably the newest ANYTHING I have ever owned. And I'm serious when I say I don't want Wade to drive it. We'll see....

The docs went better. I have gained 3.3 lbs, which isn't enough, but better. My Blood Pressure dropped a lot in the last two weeks, but still not enough. 143/160. She strongly recommends Home Care, but I say I'll just keep doing what I'm doing. Keep asking for help, and just do things that way. Baby's heart beat was at 160bp/m but she was kicking like crazy at the time. So they are not worried about how fast her heart was. Back next week to check BP and weight. And the week after to see my Doctor.

Anyhow,

Going driving :)...

Wednesday July 2, 2008

I no longer need to worry about the transmission in my van... Why??? Because I go to pick up my NEW van TONIGHT!!!! Thats right my NEW van. 2006 Dodge Caravan. Who cares about the year and all that BS though.... this thing is luxury to drive. Plus it has air conditioning... which my current van does not. Powered EVERYTHING! I even have these little buttons on the drivers side to open the windows in the very back (the vent windows.) Key less entry... too cool! C.D player and....


DOUBLE SLIDING DOORS!!!!!

*Sighs* Awww... I'm in heaven.

On top of it all, we are still going to keep Wades truck, but payments are complete in February, and the payments on the new van are 150 bucks CHEAPER than the truck... Can it get any better?


I have a doctors appointment this afternoon, so my sister in law is coming to watch Harley for me. It is so nice to have family that is reliable. This doctors appointment will determine weather or not I will have to stay in the hospital or if what I'm doing at home is good enough for my blood pressure. This will also decide if baby will be taken early, or if we get to wait for her to be ready to come on her own.

I feel like I've gained weight, so hopefully I have because I only had 2 weeks to gain 2lbs. Which is actually kind of difficult to do when you can't keep anything down.

Still working on Baby's room, but I do have all the important things now, so I'm just waiting for things to fall in place. Working a little bit here and there every day.


Potty training is going surprisingly well. Yesterday we went through 3 pairs of under ware in total. and not a mess on my carpet, although i did get one in the kitchen, at least it was linoleum.

I'll fill in more tomorrow...

Tuesday July 1, 2008

Well some how I managed to get Saturday under control. My in laws took Harley until about 4 pm. Wade came home from work, we went out to my parents and they kept Harley until Sunday afternoon, and we met up at the family BBQ. The BBQ went very well I might add. Usually those things get so crazy I leave within the hour, But it went super well. Did some shopping for baby, can cross a ton off my list now. which puts me at ease.

Wade had Monday off, so we just hung out and chilled in the back yard with Harley. Played in the pool, on the swing, and whatever else. My mom gave and took me shopping for more mat clothes, my belly is starting to show with the other clothes I have. So Wade and Harley stayed home. Apparently they went to see "Uncle Evan" Which made Harley so happy. And they saw Gido at work.

We're back to the work week though, and things need to get back to normal. We start the potty training as soon as Harley wakes up.

Wish me dry carpet...

Saturday June 28, 2008

The longer I hold off talking about it, the more frustrating it gets for me. I am talking about the issues with the family. I'm curious if it is all just a joke for them? Spend all this money on someone and that will mean you love them. Did anyone know that? Don't they understand? Doesn't anyone care? Why am I all alone in all of this?

I'm sorry none of you get it, but there are only so many details I can put on the internet of course.

Wader is working today. Sad but good. I mean that was the whole reason for Wade moving to this job, more money, and plenty of opportunity for over time. Just frustrating for me when I'm home alone all week, and still have to wait part of the weekend to be with him. The bright side though, Wade got paid yesterday and brought home in one week the same amount he was bring home in 2 weeks at the last job. So we have doubled his income so far. This is good. They don't work Sundays, which is good to. But he does work Saturdays, and that sucks!

My parents called and want to take Harley over night tonight. I think its crazy they couldn't plan this ahead of time. The make all these arrangements for my sisters boyfriends mom to pick Harley up. I think thats crazy too! I've never met the lady, and although I am sure she is very nice, would you send your kid with a stranger? Probably not. Of course I'm the one who is screwed up..... Not to mention, we go tonight to pick up the furniture, so why can't they wait til this evening when I'm driving? "Because we bought him a new swimming pool!" Well... HELLO!!?!?!?!?! He's only out there every couple of months why buy anything for him? I'm so confused with it all. On top of all of that, they get to see him tomorrow at the family BBQ my dad's side of the family is having. Like my mind is going in circles right now, and I just want Wade to help me out and make it all better but he is WORKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


til next post....

Friday June 27 2008

We have a long weekend ahead of us. I mean literally. A baptism, a family BBQ, and we need to pick up some furniture from my parents. Because of course, my parents stood me up at the beginning of the week, thus means we have to take care of it ourselves. Cuz ya know I'll be so much help to Wade. (*sarcasm*)

Wade has agreed we can go shopping this weekend for baby, however, I'm not sure this is the best time to go with such a crazy weekend, I'm feeling overwhelmed just thinking about it.

Yesterday was my last day baby sitting Stone. And although I was looking forward to this idea of just being able to chill out... I'm bored!!! Surely I thought I could find myself lots to do, but everything hurts. Laundry hurts my back. Hanging the pictures and shelves in baby's room hurts my upper back. I just finished washing the floors and now my side is in pain... yada yada yada .... it just hurts.

Missed my BP check this week... shhh... don't tell any body or I could be in some BIG trouble. But I have a doc appt for the 2nd. And that one determines if I go into the hospital for BP monitoring and IV for weight gain. Or if I just get to stay home and "take it easy." If I get to stay home, then Home Care will have to come here and take care of things for me, and I really don't like that idea. Of course I'm not going to the hospital either...

Whatever ?! ...

Wednesday June 25, 2008

I feel we are making progress in Baby's room. Last night we hung the sheer for the closet, the canopy for the bed and 3 of the 4 shelves. Mom has informed me she is going to get baby the crib bedding. Which I really hope she does. I'm having such a hard time believing most of my family right now, Mom usually pulls through on what she says though. There is a list of things I still need for baby, but I think most of it is ok if we don't have it until after baby is born.

• Diapers (obviously a must before she gets here)
• Nipples for bottles
• Nipple and bottle brush
• formula (although I do plan to breast feed)
• Vaseline & Baby Oil
• Soaps, Lotions, cleansers
• Baby brush
• Pacifiers (I'll get these before we leave the hospital, trust me!)
• Mobile
• Nasal aspirator/thermometer/medicine dropper
• Diaper bag
• Wash clothes'

I also still need to pick up my stroller for baby from a gf's house. And invest in some toys for this kid too. Babies don't usually like to play with Tonka Trucks and Ninja Turtles...LOL

We're getting there, feeling a little better, I just wish it could all just get done! I haven't packed a bag yet, and I'm thinking I probably should, but then I have to find the perfect coming home outfit for baby. Thats super important ya know!

Wade and I had a nice spat this morning about house work. Apparently its okay if I cook supper do the dishes, vacuum , sweep and mop. So much for bed rest @$$ hole!

Off to work....

Tuesday June 24 2008

Last night a girlfriend of mine dropped off more clothes for baby. Which is great, however what about all the other stuff I need? I still don't have crib bedding, which I'm so undecided on. Everything in her room is pink and white, so I think I'll just stick with that. Instead of my leopard extravaganza that everyone keeps making fun of me for. I don't have a mobile for the crib. Which really saved our butts with Harley. A diaper bag, even diapers! I got nothing real important. I have a bed for her to sleep on, and clothes to put on her. But no sheets and no diapers? And if doc seriously thinks shes coming early how am I supposed to get this done? Especially if I'm supposed to be on bed rest. HA HA. The list is a mile long. What I need is to hire a pro shopper, and enlist their credit card with it! LOL

Beginning to get really frustrated with the lack of help from Wade. And I could complain about it, which would make me feel better, but I don't say a damn word at all, because that seems to get us no where. And lately I have been extra tired. Last night I was in bed at 9, woke up, and the dishes are still in the sink waiting to be washed. Real nice eh?

Really don't think I'm having a baby shower. At least I've heard nothing about it, and we're on a time crunch here! I'm getting impatient. I just want things done and ready so I can relax and be prepared for when she gets here. I don't remember feeling like this with Harley.

My parents stood me up yesterday, which was no real surprise. I just think its really unfair to get my hopes up and then not even call to say a word about it. Claimed they never said they were coming, they said the MIGHT come.... Well of course they did eh? Aren't I the stupid one.

Sick of people, sick of family, sick of sick!

Monday June 23 2008

Well I don't think we have to worry to much about me gaining weight with the way Wades family is feeding me.
FIL was really concerned about everything with baby. He told MIL. So Saturday while Wade was at work, they came and picked Harley up (I don't think they have ever done that... I don't think I have ever let them) and they kept him for most of the day. Then we were invited for supper. They specifically bought me chicken, because meat doesn't stay down. There were potatoes like you would never believe and salads outta the yang! There was so much food I couldn't believe it. And she kept filling my plate. (She has never done that) They wouldn't even let me help with dishes. Of course, I wasn't going to argue. Afterwards they put a huge glass of milk in front of me, and a bowl of yogurt. Then sent all the remaining jug of milk and container of yogurt home with me. There is so much milk in my fridge its sick!

Honestly though, it was super nice that they took Harley for the day. Part of me doesn't want him to go anywhere, because these will be the last few months of just Harley and me. But another part of me is begging for sleep. I could get used to the pampering....

Wade took us shopping on Sunday to Ikea. And I loved it! Couldn't stay long though, my legs really started to hurt. I bought some curtains, and a canopy for the crib. (because she's a princess) A shelf for our room, and a toy hammock for Harley. It was so nice just hanging out as a family. Still haven't found crib bedding though. When we got back, Wade made me take a nap. So nice... slept for an hour, and felt like I slept for a decade. Then we cleaned the basement to make it more practical for everyone. Now Wade has his own little spot to work on his models. I have a spot for scrap booking, and the computer area. Its very nice and open. Wade put a table in the laundry room for me to fold the clothes so I don't haul the hampers up and down the stairs. (kinda sweet) He also put a comfy chair in the play room for me to hang out with Harley and the book shelf of books so I don't have to go far to cuddle and read.

We started to hang shelfs up last night in the Hall way so I can finish unpacking from the move still. (no I'm not done yet!) But I wasn't feeling well, and my back was really starting to hurt. (think that was from walking around Ikea) So we went to bed and watched a movie. Wade kept bringing me glasses of milk. It is so nice to be taken care of, but what a pain in the ass drinking all that milk!

I finish baby sitting this week, which seems odd to me. Thing is I don't feel sick, so this is hard to nothing. But I am very worried about baby, so I thought it would be best to just worry about me and Harley. And we'll look into home care if I think Harley is too much as well. But for now, we'll just try this.

I'll keep ya posted...

Thursday June 19 2008

So the list goes on. Baby may not be well, then again she might be. My blood pressure is very high, I've been given 2 weeks to get it down and gain 2lbs. Or I will be hospitalized... which we don't want. But the dr. wants to be sure when I go on bed rest that I am 100% on bed rest. When the doc took measurements I have not grown at all since may. Baby's heart beat was too fast. (167 b/m) which they believe is linked to my high blood pressure. (143/185) I have lost 12lbs in the last 2 months. and in total have lots 37lbs in my pregnancy. I was gaining the weight back for a little bit ( I gained 5 of it back) but I lost 12 so really thats not good. I am at a high risk right now for premature birth. I'm scared....

Bright side (if their is one) I'm very well hydrated which is good considering I can't keep any food down, and my protein levels are back to normal.

Tuesday June 17, 2008

Are you aware that potato salad looks exactly the same coming out as it does going in? Yea, and it kinda burns when you throw it up. Lately too, every time I vomit my nose bleeds as well. So I'm leaning over the sink (I cannot puke in the toilet) throwing up my guts, and my blood every where. And my son just says
"uh oh, broken!"

NO KIDDING!

I hear Leanne had her baby, but I don't know any of the details. I kinda think its a little weird because either her mom or her MIL thought from the very beginning that baby should be born on the 17th, but shes not due until the 27th. A boy I believe it was too.

I am able to walk much better today, at least I don't look like the hunch back anymore. I just have to move very slowly. Unfortunately for Harley I cannot run... sometimes this is an advantage to him, but then mommy can't really play either.

Wade started his new job yesterday, and is in love. Another bonus to it, benefits start after 300 hours, instead of 3months. So we'll have them before baby gets here. YAY!

Not sure I can baby sit much longer though, things are getting very difficult for me. Thinking I might have to find a baby sitter for my own kid! For the most part Harley baby sits stone for me. Playing with him, and the "suckie" or "milk" is he's crying. Its kinda cute how he comes running up to me "MAMA MAMA CRYING!!!!" and I'm just supposed to know that its stone crying. sorta sweet.

Started cleaning out closets yesterday and I am going to tackle the filing cabinets one of these days. Wade was a bit of a grump last night while he was helping me, so I think I'll just get him to move stuff around instead of help with the organizing.

Til next time...

Monday June 16, 2008

I have found a web page I am in love with! All I can think about it buying ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING on it. Of course the baby isn't letting me forget she is there. From Friday on... today is better so far. I have been in EXTREME pain. And some how I very much hurt my back on top of it all. I know that back pain is normal, but this is excruciating, and the stomach tightening is horrible. I have barley been able to move, I walk like a hunch back, and there is no way I can squat right now. I have been very dependent on wade, although he had to go to work today so I'm on my own now with 2 kids...

Speaking of work, Wade starts his new job today. I cannot express enough how excited about this job I am. Not only does it mean that he is closer to home, it means MORE MONEY! *doing a happy dance* Once we're paid up with everything (shouldn't take us too long I don't think) We can work on Wade's bike. The one that was a supposed to be a "write off" Well I guess it isn't after we had a guy come and look at it yesterday telling us about 400 or 500 bucks and its back on the road..... You should have seen Wades excitement. A rear tire, chain and sprockets, and some casing (?) I mean there is more we can do to it. But thats all we need to make it road worthy again.

I'm still trying to get things done, but after whatever it is I'm going through, there won't be much for me to do... all on wade now.

P.S. Free help is ALWAYS welcome ;)

Link to wonderful webpage
http://cgi.ebay.com/5-BUTTERFLY-LOT-wall-hanging-nursery-girl-room-decor_W0QQitemZ220244392813QQihZ012QQcategoryZ37635QQcmdZViewItem#ebayphotohosting

Friday June 13 2008

Moms in their second pregnancy can feel the baby's movements sooner than those in their first pregnancy. Or so the doc says.... Well moms in their second pregnancy seem to get every little nook and cranny figured don't they? We're just privileged to feel every symptom possible WAY sooner than we really need to. The worst part? We know its coming... we don't want it to come and then BAM! we get hit with it earlier than the first time moms?! How unfair is that? Powerful kicks, mysterious bruises, muscles spasms, cervix grinding, and something that looks like it's straight from the movie "Alien"? Yep! That's baby. And last night OMG! My stomach was so tight Wade could actually see the formation of baby protruding. You could tell exactly where her head was and where her feet were. It was the most creepy thing I have EVER seen. I mean Harley moved lots, but not creepy like this. Harley's thing was to "swoosh" from one side of my belly to the next. Causing pain never the less, but still he wasn't creepy.

Last night was the last time we will ever get to step foot in to my in laws house. And for most people they wouldn't really care. I mean Wade of course, might care a little, but its not the house he "grew" up in. He was in High school when they moved there. However, for me it was much more emotional that I thought it would be. That is the home that opened its doors to me and my pregnant belly. Taking in Wade and me and our unborn Harley under its roof and caring for us for a year and half before my choice to leave. That was the house we brought Harley home to. His first home is now in possession of some stranger. That was the house that loved me and cared for me and my baby when it didn't have to!!! It just did because thats what that home feels. You can feel warmth, you don't feel like you need to walk on tip toes, or watch what wall you brush up against. If you want to holler you holler, if you want to cry you cry, and trust me that place gave TONS of laughter off.
I am so hurt to see someone else get a hold of the home that made us a family. And made Wade's family my family.

Never the less time moves on, and things happen that we don't want to happen. I just have to get over it. But I think its crazy that in 6 months I watch 2 homes that I truly felt like I belonged in just disappear. My house in Bruderheim... that was our home! MIL and FILs house that was home. Anytime Wade and I needed to go there we would call it "home." The house in Bruderheim was "Harley's house" and thats what we called it! And my parents place... is my parents place.

Sad but True...

Thursday June 12, 2008

I love my son dearly but we're going through some phase right now that I could do with out! I mean the tantrums, and whining. Its insane. I'm wondering if its because he is starting to realize the changes. And if that is the case I know it will only get worse when baby is here.

Still waiting for things to get done. Wish there was more I could do in baby's room but things are taking so long for whatever reason. So I move on to a different room and end up being exhausted at the end of the day.

The goodbye party for the in laws house is tonight. This is really bugging me. Thats the home we brought Harley to from the hospital, and the first 9 months of his life, and the last 4 months of my pregnancy was in that house. Its taring me apart, I really don't want to see it go. And if money would have allowed us, I know we would have bought it.

Off to start work on the basement now

Wednesday June 11, 2008

The baby is moving like crazy! I can't sleep at all anymore. It has been uncomfortable for a while, but now my belly is having like seziures. Harley finally got to feel the baby move. (He was patient enough) And all he kept say after wards was "MORE MORE MORE" LOL. Last night we were talking about the baby, and Harley brought a toy ducky over to me and stuck it under my shirt. I asked him what for and he said "Toy for Baby." It was too sweet, now if I can explain to him that this baby does come out of me... or I will forever have toys stuffed under my shirt.LOL


My house seems so cluttered right now. And I can't get all this stuff out of my house fast enough. I think this is it ladies and gents! This thing they call "nesting," I believe it has started. Furniture is flying out of my house. I am giving almost everything and anything away. I can't stand the clutter so I'm constantly reorganizing. And it never bothered me until today. I cleaned the bathroom yesterday evening, and guess what I did this afternoon? I cleaned the bathroom yet again!!! I had 3 ladies come to my house to pick up some furniture that I just GAVE away. I think I'm going crazy. But this house will get in order before the baby gets here.

Back to work :)

Tuesday June 10, 2008

I can't stand the mess anymore! My house is always covered in toys, and all though it has been for the last 2 years, I'm trying to get things done and I just can't seem to function with all the toys! My patience is short and my fuse is ready to blow! LOL Not to mention I was puking again this morning. That stopped about 10am or so. But will it ever stop for good?

I want baby's room to be together already, but everything seems to be put on hold for the in laws moving. Thats done and over with though, just cleaning the old house is all that is left to be done. Waiting on SIL with details on baby's dresser, and still working hard on trying to get the bedding I want out of my parents. I would say next month I'll be able to get things done. As this weekend is fathers day and my grandma's b-day. And next weekend is my mom's b-day. After that I think I'm free to just focus. Of course I still watch stone until the end of July, so maybe I'll wait until then.


P.S.

Ceasar wraps are the best prego food ever. Top with a glass of milk, and I'm in heaven! LOL

Monday June 9, 2008

"Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday dear ME! Happy Birthday to me!"

Yesterday was my birthday, and like the past few years I would wake up to wade making breakfast and he would wish me a Happy Birthday then we would carry on with the day. This year there was no breakfast. In laws called and took us out for food instead. Fabulous meal! FIL made up some story about needing help at the old house. So we went off there and arrived to a triple layer chocolate satin cake and strawberry's. A dozen red roses with a Happy Birthday Balloon and a new Pyrex baking dish (Wade shattered mine the day before) Harley can say "birthday" and I taught him that mommy was "two two" so there were 2 candles on either side of the cake to show that I was "two two." LOL

After that, because FIL didn't really need wades help we were off to my mom's for dinner. My absolute favorite supper ever. Mashed potatoes and Broccoli steamed with cheese on top...mmmm....My mom's home made ceaser salad (delicious) and pork chops baked in mushroom soup. AMAZING!

Mom and dad bought me a crock pot for my b-day, a plier set, and a light for my garage. I was so excited. MY sister bought me the most beautiful solar powered light for my flower bed. Its a humming bird and a lily, and the bird looks like its about to fly into the flower. The change all different colors. Its really beautiful.

I had such and amazing weekend. But yesterday topped the cake.


P.S.
Thank to everyone for the Birthday wishes.

Friday June 6, 2008

We're approaching the weekend. Which would normally be great, however this weekend would be my birthday. I'm not exactly thrilled at the idea. Although most people would be so exited to be turning 22. I realized that I am going to be 22 with 2 kids! I love my children dearly, however I'm 22!!!!! I'm suposta be having fun!!! And parenting is a VERY interesting blessing, but I don't know if we would call it fun!

My FIL got everything fixed and working for me in the basement so now I have a completely working dryer!!!!! That has got to be the most exciting thing in the entire world after 6 months of hanging clothes to dry. I now have a BRAND SPANKING NEW dryer and a $115 breaker repair. (working on the landlord still for reimbursement.) Can't love my FIL enough, I don't think he even realizes how much a burden he took off our shoulders.

Again tonight, and this weekend we will be helping the in laws with "moving" although its not their stuff we're moving anymore. Some how we got rigged into moving all my SIL's things as well. I pity that move. (4 flights of stairs, no elevator.)

Anyhow, need to run find out what that "BANG" was upstairs.

Tuesday June3, 2008

Ever had a weekend that was so long, but yet not long enough ? This helping the in laws move has taken a toll on me. Between my hips and swollen feet, I've been puking every day. I just started packing food for me and Harley because I couldn't handle anymore fast food. Pregnant or not don't they give a tiny damn about health!? Like the first few nights I understand, but this is 2 weeks now. Conveniently a bunch of the family can no longer help... I'm not saying their liars I'm just saying interesting timing. (One threw a back out, one ended up with carpel tunnel syndrome(?) Another has to work, another's arthritis is really bothering 'em.) Interesting......
Yes I'm complaining about the work too because it is making me physically ill, no I haven't stopped helping!!!!!

My little sister had her 18th birthday on Sunday. She's all "grow'd" up now. My birthday is this Sunday and after this I'm only having 3 more. I'll go until I'm 25 but I'm not getting any older than that. I'm not gonna be one of those people who are like 50 and saying they are 29, I'm just going to stay at 25 instead.

Had my diabetes's test yesterday. Thats ridiculous. Drink this (wasn't that bad) sit here for an hour and then we'll take a needle and you can go. I was so tired from sitting in the docs office I actually went back to the van and had a nap before I drove anywhere. I have NEVER done that before.

I finally have a BRAND spank'n' new dryer in my basement. (my sweet heart FIL) But the breaker needs to be replaced in my basement ( he's on his way over right now :) I love him) So I'll be back when I can.

Thursday May 29, 2008

So last night my in laws got possession of their new house. Guess who gets to help move? Not that I mind really, but all the squatting down, weather it be for hooking the computer up, packing or unpacking the boxes.... My ass is incredibly sore. They won't let me lift, or reach and I can't bend so I have to squat! It was also my MIL birthday yesterday. So people we coming left right and center and it was the last thing we wanted was a house full when we're trying to move. My one SIL decided to join the family. (haven't seen her in 6months) I thought she was gonna kill me when we were trying to decide the best coordination for the computer desk. Of course my MIL has specifically requested to be facing the window (on one side of the room) but didn't want her back to the door ( on the opposite side of the room.) This was impossible, so now she is facing a wall! After hours of figuring that out, I need my FIL to screw the desk back together which took 5 minutes once he finally got to it. And another 10 minutes for me to hook everything up. Then another hour of "B.S'n" with all the people before my FIL finally drove me home at midnight! I had to send Wade home with Harley to get Harley into bed (by this time it was 10pm) But Harley was still awake when I got home:( poor kid just wanted to sing "twinkle twinkle little star" with mommy like every other night.

So I'm just gonna let him sleep in today for as long as he would like because we're off to do more of this moving stuff again tonight. (maybe they will cook a real meal instead of fast food, (or meat) cuz my tummy can't handle this)

Tuesday May 27, 2008

Woke up this morning and started throwing up again. Thats 2 days in a row now... hmmm.... Wondering whats going on there. Baby is moving lots, especially if I lay on my right side, the left side of my stomach looks like its having seizures it moves so much. Getting baby's room all in order has really been a chore. The cleaners really get to me so I have to stop every 15 minutes or so.

Think these crampy feelings I get are contractions. Weird that I don't know what they are, but with Harley it was all about the back labor! Slightly painful, not worrisome yet. Enough pain to make you stop what your doing, but not enough to make you run to the hospital. Assuming this is normal. Really not concerned. Just more of a nuisance than anything.

Wader got the new job last night. Starts on the 16th of June making 2 bucks more than now. Good news if you ask me. Plus he'll be back into the sandblasting, which is so much nicer than the bed liners.

Thinking of making more goodies. I for some reason have been really enjoy baking but I'm not eating most of it, so its kind of a waste. Recipies are always welcome :).

Back to laundry the never ending job....

Monday May 26, 2008

And the lists begin... I'm thinking its time to start preparing

• 2 or 3 diaper shirts/ sleepers (size 0-3 months)

I know I won't need many of those, Harley was in his for like 2 weeks!

• More socks/ booties
• scratch mittens (although I'm not so sure those are really necessary)
• Nipples for the bottles
• Bottle Brush
• Diapers (lord knows we'll need TONS of those)
• Vaseline
• wipes
• Tub seats (for when she can sit by herself... trust me that happens faster than we all think)
• Baby hair brush/ tooth brush
• Mobile
• Pacifiers
• Night light
• nasal aspirator/ infant thermometer/ medicine dropper
• Diaper bag!
  
• hooded towels/ wash clothes!
  

Thats it! Next to the car seat and stroller (because Harley's is expired baby needs a new one) everything else is for me. Most of this stuff isn't really needed either. A lot of it is just things I think I should have. Lots depends on how sensitive her skin is too! If you ask me .... I got TONS done this weekend. Now just to put it all together!

Sister graduated as well... so sad to see you baby sister all grown up , on the other hand, I've never been so happy.

Talk to you all soon!

Friday May 23 2008

Been sick these past few days. Not super sick, just lots of vomit. Wade pointed out to me Wednesday night that maybe we should put the crib up. I said why? we got a few months... well now for some reason I'm making my lists and checking twice, or three, or four times now. I'm organizing and reorganizing and driving myself crazy that I can't just run out a buy all the things I need!

This happen too quickly!

Sister graduates tomorrow, so this weekend is shot. As is next weekend, and the next and the next LOL. So I guess I really haven't got time for much else.
Water seeped into my basement yesterday some time too, and I didn't notice until like 10pm because I went to clean the play room. Landlord will do nothing about it. Thank goodness it was just the play room, and not where the TV and computer and everything like that was. Joy joy!

See ya all Monday!

Wednesday May 21, 2008

Its easy to come up with all the love for one child. It just magically appears! But how about two? Where does that love come from ?! do you steal it from the first and then he gets ripped off, bad enough he loses all his mommy time. And now he has to share his parents with someone he never even asked for. He doesn't deserve it.
Or maybe the second one doesn't get the love, maybe just really good parents pretend to love the second one so it doesn't feel left out. But in reality they don't love her at all because all the love is in the first one.

Possible you only steal half the love from the first one, that way you love them both equally, but you don't love the first as much as you did the before the second one came along.

Does new love for the second one magically appear too? Am I gonna favorite one from the other? How am I supposed to divide my time between two kids? Its not fair Harley has to share... why didn't I think these things through before? How am I gonna balance the two? I mean I'll always love Harley more won't I?

Confused, scared, nervous...

Sunday May 18, 2008

The weekend nears an end, and it has been truly enjoyable. So nice to have Wade home. Not sure if I could do it much longer than 4 days though...lol...
Got some of the planting done in my puny flower bed out back. Nothing like what Bruderheim was. Although with those fires I guess I'm glad we don't live there no more. But Wade helped get rid of all the goodies the cats left behind for me so I was able to turn the soil over and plant the seeds. Now lets hope for no frost. I just love putzing outside, so that made my weekend nice.

Wade and Harley have been spending so much time together this weekend as well, which was nice at first having nothing for me to do. But I'm almost getting jealous of the lack of time I'm getting:)

I'm sure I'll be back Tuesday...

Thursday May 15, 2008

Wake up this morning at 6 o'clock to discover my screaming child has puked ALL over his bedroom! Beautiful a pregnant woman now has to clean up puke... as if I can stand my own! So I strip him down to get him into the bath tub to discover along with the vomit is diarrhea! Awesome... This is gonna be a peachy day.

So my day consisted of changing an enormous amount of diapers (stones diapers as well, but thats not included in the enormous amount) Changing Pajama's all day long, washing bedding (with out a dryer need I complain some more) Bathing my son over and over again because it smelled disgusting every single time. All while taking care of stone as well. All in all I would say I had a FABULOUS day!!!

Wade was being an asshole today too, to top it off. He had some interview as well, although he decided to tell me he canceled it after I had thought he was already at the damn thing.

My sister was freaking out today on the phone with me because her friend was in jail or something (some crowd to hang out with). MY cousins girlfriend has called me 800 times this week with nothing to say.... I just wanted to tell everyone to take and shove it. Instead I politely let it all go. Finally got Harley to bed, and I am hoping that is the last of it until morning at least because I'm not so sure my back can handle anymore.

P.S.
Did I mention the disgusting spider that haunted me most of the day!?

Wednesday May 14, 2008

Feeling ready to blow! I'm tired of being fat and there is so much more to come... Baby's moves are more prominent now, so everyone has an easy time feeling her kick. I of course hate the fact that everyone can feel her, because everyone is constantly touching my belly!


Harley is looking much better but is still on the meds for about 8 more days. He is back to his usual self... Driving me crazy! Have no major plans for this weekend. But since I have little time to prepare for baby, (with babysitting and Harley) we will be trying to get things in order around here to make sure the house is set up conveniently for me/her when she comes... Even though I have another 3 months, really thats not that long when you can't remember where the last 2 years went :)


Still have yet to book my diabetes test. I feel like I have been walking around with hang over these past few days. I'm very groggy, tired, and not entirely there.... Anyhow got things to do :)

Tuesday May 13 2008

I apologize for taking so long to get back to blogging. Life has been crazy, and we're booked for the next six weeks as well. Running here and there for all the birthdays/ holidays/ graduations and yadayadayada.

Mothers day was very nice, Wade took care of everything for me. The cooking the cleaning and every single diaper that had to changed... it was amazing. I got a bunch of tulips from Harley and a dozen roses from Wade along with the sweetest home made card made by both Wade and Harley.

Yesterday Wade was given the day off so he was home about 10am and did pretty much the same thing. Let me take a nap got Harley changed and dressed took him to who knows where to make the house would stay quiet for me. They came back with a Timmy's coffee and we spent the evening outside as a family. It was amazing!

Today things are back to normal though, back to baby sitting and fighting with a 2 year old. Which in case I forgot to fill you in on the thing that was going on with Harley's eye its allergies. And 70 dollars worth of meds and he back to him self. Although he is still on medication so he is very whinny and groggy everything else seems good with him.

Anyhow, this week should be slow and this weekend is booked yet again. So I'm back to getting the laundry done while I have a chance.

P.S.
When I was a kid I worked for a company called "Deep Fried Ice Cream"
Last night I mastered my own Deep Fried Ice Cream and I am now in love :)

Thrusday May 8, 2008

1. First starts the morning sickness
   
2. the constant having to pee
3. the sore breasts
   
4. the weird crampy pains making you think your gonna get your period but you know your not because your prego
5. and the extreme fatigue

Then things subside leaving you to believe all is gonna get better, you can feel baby moving but its not too annoying just yet. You see it as a blessing and a warmth that runs through your body knowing baby is healthy. In my case however, the morning sickness never went away...

1. Still having morning sickness, although it has gotten better, I'm just a lot more sensitive to smell
2. Not having anything to wear and all the shirts are getting too short
   
3. the leaky boobs, that if I do not wear breast pads I have those horrible little stains which look like your hubby had fun on your shirt if you catch my drift
4. the aches and pains in the hips, back, and legs from the extra weight
5. the huffing and puffing making you think your just fat
   
6. And now the troubles sleeping....Between being constantly uncomfortable, trying to accommodate my belly and the horrible dreams (their not all horrible) but you tend to remember them better for some reason... I am up every couple of hours now

AND I'm still in my second trimester... You gotta be kidding me right!? Is this some cruel joke? I mean for some reason I was SOOOOO excited to have another baby and couldn't wait to get pregnant again (of course I didn't have half of these issues with Harley) And now 9 months of this?! In the end I know its worth it... after the labor (pray its not 37 hours of back labor like with Harley) The pushing the pain... and then they have to do a c-section because baby stopped breathing causing us to panic.... the section leads to another 8 weeks of hell on top of the sleepless nights... But maybe this baby won't do the same as Harley did

Still I know there is a joyful moment in the end that lasts 18 years... not every moment in those 18 years will be joyful... but it will all be worth it!

*Smiles*

Wednesday May 7, 2008

Alright so I never TOTALLY quit smoking over night, but I have cut down massive!!!!! And I will continue to do so. I promise. Although I think because I haven't had as many that could be why I'm throwing up all day. And such a terrible head ache. Harley is being a little angel today... kinda strange... Yesterday afternoon too, he came and cuddled up with me and said "mama go nuh nite" We both fell asleep! It was fabulous...

Stone is still very crabby, assuming its cuz he's sick. Never did get my blizzard from DQ I was craving...

Anyhow off to make Chocolate Chip cookies. Made peanut butter ones yesterday, but there was none left when wader got home.

Tuesday May 6, 2008

So I got this idea last night... Lets quit smoking! Should done it months ago... Hell years ago... Never should have started. But I thought since the doc said I wasn't gaining enough weight, and people who quit smoking usually gain weight..... Well nows my time to get fat. Not to mention all the health benefits. So there are 2 more cigs to go, and I'm done. Wish me luck.

Babysitting again today, baby is sick. Lots of coughing. Harley is taring up the house. Throwing his tantrums on a regular basis, which is not acceptable, but when he is at my parents house he comes back as a little hellion thinking he can get away with anything here just like at grandmas house.

Spent most of the day outside yesterday, getting no work done at all.Went back to the in laws to help some more last night. Been craving DQ like crazy.

Missing Bruderheim
Missing My Friends

Monday May 5, 2008

The weekend. Long, eventful, but boring! Starts Thursday I had to take the day off babysitting, because of an appointment, which put me in worry mode after I had left. Especially with not gaining "enough" weight. I didn't think that was really a problem in any womens life! Hubby came home from getting his bike checked out because the receptionist at work backed into it. Only to find that it is a right off.

Friday I had to go for that weird test,for my protein but wasn't able to book my diabetes test the same day, so I'm working on finding a day that will work for both me and stone. Had some company over Friday night we hadn't seen in a long time, which was great for the kids, but too long of a night for myself.

Saturday, because Harley was at grandma's, we decided to go look for this "20 dollar part" for my dryer. To in turn find out it'll be more like 100 bucks! Annoyed with that. We were off to help Wade's parents with cleaning out the garage, which I'm sure we will be a major part of this packing ordeal for the next month or so, until they are in the new house. We also went looking at bikes for Wade, although I'm still thinking its crazy. We put the swing set up in the yard and did a bit of "cleaning" but we still have much more to go before the yard will be "presentable." It appears the people before us, really didn't care what was in their yard... you would be amazed at what I found! Afterwards I told Wade to take me to a movie, and he did so, but focused WAY too much on his popcorn, that we had to wait in line for an hour for. Literally an hour, because they only had one popcorn machine working. Once we are finshed the half of the movie we got to see, I thought we would come home and enjoy our evening together, but instead wader was off to a buds house til 4 in the morning... leaving me at home!

Sunday we spent helping the in laws clean out the garage... picked up Harley and that was it!

after a weekend like that .... What will the week bring us?!

Thursday May1, 2008

Had my doc appointment today. Protein levels are a little low, and blood pressure is a little high. I have to go for another appt. tomorrow sorta like a barium test but not really, at least thats what was explained to me. The "baby sitter" did show up, which was great considering the unreliability from them, so I got to go with out little man. Good thing to, because of the blood work they want done tomorrow. Very very tired today... surprise on that one.

Harley handled hanging out with Cory today really well surprisingly, however I did come home to blue crayon on my hall way walls, no real surprise there. There is black on the top of the stairs and red in my bedroom.

Got Harley for a nap (few and far between) so I'm about to head for mine. Thats a dream come true!

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Something about rain makes every so sleepy eh!? Such a yucky day today, but I do guess that rain is better than snow, although there is some of that mixed in with the rain.
I am still having some major cramping, very uncomfortable especially if I have to bend down at all. Which baby sitting a 6 month old, you do have to bend down lots!

Harley's eye this morning when he woke up was very swollen and kinda of "lazy" looking... almost like half his face is Asian the way its slants. (that was not intended to be racist) I plan to take him in to the doctors tomorrow after my appointment, as long as I have a baby sitter for him. Funny how that works, you can baby sit everyone else's kids but can never find a sitter for your own.

I'm on the search for a recipe right now that is meatballs in like a mushroom sauce. Been dieing to try it, just can't find a recipe. Last night on Take Home Chef, which I do not normally watch but Curtis Stone is a very good looking man. They made caramelized baby bananas, so you can bet I will be trying that tonight after dinner.

Anyhow off to finish some laundry while kids are sleeping ( well Stone is) with my non working dryer... Talk to you all soon

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

What a long day yesterday brought us, and I am sure today is just another one of those as well. What on earth would I do with out wader?! Yesterday Harley made his way to bed around 8ish maybe 9. Way past his bed time, but I saw this as a bit of an opportunity to sleep in. However to Harley this must have meant that getting up at 5:30am was the way of getting back at mom and dad for who knows what. Since this pregnancy has made me so exhausted Wade pulled his butt out of bed and watched Harley until about 7 when it was time for my to get up. What would I so with out him? Needless to say though Harley was whining and cranky ALL DAY LONG for me.
Bringing me to another issue, My dryer. Like every stay at home mom in this world, and I would think its for working moms too, although I do not know. Laundry is a constant thing that you will NEVER get caught up in, and with kids you usually have a load of dirty laundry produced every day at least! As babies it is worse, but as they get to a toddler stage you learn that chocolate pudding on his shirt isn't that bad for a few more hours, or if he hasn't dirtied his jammies yet, why take him out of them? Which is why you will see my kid absolutely filthy by noon before i even attempt to clean him up. Same thing with his face... WHY would I wash him face 300 times a day, if I can get away with only 30 times a day?! Anyhow, I have not had a proper working dryer since we moved here... that is now 4 months ago. So I have been washing in the washer and hanging everything to dry. I have gone through 4 dryers since we have lived here. Yesterday Wade and my friend Cory went and got yet another used dryer for me to find that this one is better than the rest, however it doesn't heat up.
Dryer repair man ... are you out there???

I am still baby sitting Cory's son, Stone (6months old), and am about ready to say thats it I quit! But we do need the extra money. So my mornings are too early for me, my nights are too late, and the nap times are non existent. For those of you having your first one, chances are you have no idea what I am talking about. Life is easy when you have only yourself to take care of. So there is a major toss up about what I am supposed to do. If I should quit until after baby is born or if I should continue exhausting myself for a measly 20 bucks a day (which by the way is only a smoking deal because it is a buddy of mine. I am now regretting.)

These here are the minor problems of the day. Major issues tend to work themselves out...LOL...

Because of all the walking and moving of furniture, the attempted spring cleaning ( I now have 3 levels to clean instead of just one) And the long days I have been in major cramping pain in the belly. I know this is all too much for me, but whattya do? Its not a pain so bad I'm worried, its a pain that makes you stop in your tracks and go WHY ON EARTH AM I STILL DOING THIS TO MYSELF!!!!

Strongly advise everyone to have only one... Not 2 children ... if your experiences with your second pregnancy are anywhere near what mine seem to be, you'll regret the entire pregnancy, of course you get a minimum of 18 years to enjoy the out come, but those 18 years are not fun either. I'm only on year 2 and half and I still shake my head and say "What was I thinking!? "

Take care!